appreciation

I want my mother to know that no matter how many times I tell her I hate her. I really don't she has done so much for me and my brothers. I want to tell her how I feel about her but every time I try I can never say the right words. So I'm going to say it here. I appreciate her in every way a daughter can. She's always been there for me when I needed her. We may fight ( a lot ) but she's always going to be my number one role model. Growing up even now, my mother still tells me "I'm not your friend, I'm your mother." I never fully understood that because don't you always want your mother to be your friend? But now I do understand it, my mother will always love me and be my friend but there are moments that she needs to make choices that puts her in the place of being my mother. And I love her for that. One day I hope to have a better relationship with my mother but for now I'm doing the best I can with what I have been given.